Christian Mysticism

Although I was raised as a living church youtube channel, I knew nothing about Christian mysticism — it was quite mysterious! Only years later, after I had left the Church, did I stumble across Christian mysticism, and I wondered why it was kept under wraps so secretively.

After doing a little research, I discovered that the Church had historically felt that mainstream Christians were not ready for mysticism, that it was only appropriate for saints, who squirreled themselves away from society in order to communicate directly with God. They had already been “saved by Christ” probably before they even became nuns or priests, so why did they continue to meditate and pray contemplatively, shunning the world and all the goodies the world had to offer?

Well, shucks, I thought, what if I wanted to communicate directly with God, myself, and not go through the intermediaries of a priesthood (that I never really trusted). Why couldn’t I do the same things that contemplative saints do in order to come face-to-face with Him?

Because I was genuinely interested in this, I checked into becoming a Christian monk, but becoming a Christian monk was about as probable, in my mind, as becoming the pope! With all the education and qualifications involved, the main one being that I couldn’t be married, which I was, I didn’t have a chance!

Stymied, I decided to check into other religions hoping that they would offer instructions on how to go deeply inside myself. Surprisingly, I learned that Buddhism, established 550 years before Christ and based on meditation principles 5,000 years old, had “going deeply inside” down to a science!

Also, I eventually found out that Buddhist monasteries in Thailand require no prequalifications to join the order of monks, only a sincere desire to find enlightenment and a wiliness to follow the Buddha’s rules – married or not! And since the practice involved silent meditation, and not book learning or intellectual understanding, no formal education was required.

But I wasn’t sure that I was ready to believe in the Buddha! Being a Christian, I thought that every religion required a belief or a loyalty to some savior or another, but was again surprised to learn that the Buddha allowed no guru worship toward himself, and actually insisted that his monks and nuns believe in nothing unless they could prove it true for themselves.

He didn’t even claim to be a God, or even a Son of God, but just an every day Joe who through tremendous effort became enlightened. This suggested that everyday Joes, such as me, could do the same, and this I could dig!

So I dipped my toes carefully into the waters of Buddhism, and it wasn’t long, through meditation, that I became completely immersed! This was surprising, because there were no attempts at brainwashing, or convincing me of this or that. The meditation itself cleared out the many illusions that had accumulated from years of indoctrination and delusion. For the first time in my life, I tasted what it was like to be free, and it had nothing to do with religion or beliefs. It had everything to do with coming face to face with something that is indescribable, and which can’t be mentioned or even hinted at, although it changes one’s life.

It is similar to having a bad accident and almost dying, then waking up not remembering what had happened at all other than discovering your whole personality and values have changed. People might say, “What happened to change you?” And all you can reply is, “I don’t know!” Then they might ask, “What is it that you do know?” And you can only reply again, “I don’t know anything, but my heart is bigger than my head now!

They might even ask you to teach them what you know so that they can become like you, but you can only tell them that they must discover these things for themselves, because there is no way to teach them, these things can’t be spoken about, – and that they should seek what you have found, rather than blindly following in your footsteps.

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